My sentiments are rather bittersweet about completing my YTT program. On one hand, it sure will be nice to have my weekends back. To be able to stay awake past 11pm on a Friday night is something that most people take for granted, and admittedly, my life has been pretty boring the past several months. On the other hand, however, I absolutely loved my program and it never really felt like an obligation to be waking up for it every Saturday and Sunday morning. In fact, I actually liked the structure, and having something active and interesting to do during those cold, grey winter months surely prevented me from becoming a sloth (which I am prone to become). I'm also a bit of a geek, and getting to be back in a "school" environment for the first time since I graduated under-grad, was pretty swell (yes I said swell).
The teachers I had the honour of studying with were all so incredibly inspiring in such unique ways, and the amount of wisdom that I received from each one was priceless. My appreciation to all of them is insurmountable, and I'm not sure I could ever find the right words to thank them enough. These women's words and guidance will forever be cemented in my mind and my spirit.
After leaving my final day of training last weekend, I was in complete denial. I held in my tears (kinda) and adamantly refused to say goodbye to any of my fellow trainees/new friends, but just pretended like I would see them all again the next weekend (which is actually rather likely since we all live at the studio). Words cannot express how amazing it was to be part of such an amazing group of people. To get to study and practice with such a diverse group of individuals, all from different backgrounds, but all together for a common goal, was something that not everyone gets to experience in their lifetime. And for that I am forever grateful. We all learned so much from each other, and I know that we will all be connected in such a special way for the rest of our lives.
Everyone keeps asking me what I learned throughout my training, and if I feel "ready" to go off on my own and start teaching for real. If there's one main thing I learned throughout my training....it's that I have SO much more to learn, and honestly dont believe there's such thing as being ready! This initial 200 hour program was just breaking the ice, and I am so excited to explore this new yoga path that I am on, even more so than I already have. With future opportunities of teaching, studying, practicing and advanced training programs awaiting me (I think I might be addicted), now is when the real learning begins.
Stay tuned!